Sometimes – I don’t know why – I’m filled with such a strong feeling of impending doom… *grins* and no, I’m not paranoid. What makes these various doom-filled feelings so hard to deal with, is I am one who has a fairly strong psychic connection to those I care about. I try to analyze these feelings, sort them out, try to find out if they’re an intuitive feeling coming in, or possibly an over-reactive imagination (which is a definate plus for a writer!) or simply, nothing.
What makes it even more difficult… I had the doom-filled feeling, the day my daughter was hit by a car… I had it when my ex-louse suffered his first two heart attacks… I even had it for the three weeks before Lady’s death. There are other ocassions, I’m sure, just I can’t recall them at the moment.
Damn pain. A study found (by the Mayo Clinic) that those who suffer with long-term Chronic Pain — and I believe they called 3 years long-term (recall please, I’ve been living with Chronic Pain for 9 years!) — suffer from memory loss, similar to Alheizmer’s victims. It’s annoying, and downright embarrassing, when I forget a simple everyday word, or mistakenly use another word for what I mean. *smiles* My kids joke about senility… but they know how serious this is. Fortunately, we all have the same… hmmm… dire? humor!