Weird

Okay, I actually had a couple of posts yesterday but when I came to login and make an update a few minutes ago, there was an error – the URL had somehow changed to one of my other domains where WordPress is currently not installed, so I kept getting fatal errors… so I kept playing around and updating to my last backup [the current blog showing] and deleted the blog from the other domain… and kept getting errors! *sighs*

Obviously I finally got this much back, only missing two posts. Oh well.

So why is this in the Issues category? Because I have an issue with the Ramada Inn in Fargo, ND. Last night I booked a double room for my niece’s wedding in September. Had HUGE sticker shock when the rooms ended up costing me well over $700! Today, Jennie contacted me to offer me a room at the Hilton where she is staying, has two queen beds, for only $39 a night!!!! So I tried to cancel the Ramada Inn room and they say there is a no cancellation policy and they will be keeping my $725.52 – even though I cancelled roughly six hours after making the reservation and well over a month before I’m expecting to go!! The rooms were for September 25-28, that’s almost 6-weeks away. So I called Discover – the room charges were pending, again, almost 6-weeks before the reservation date, and [Discover is so freaking awesome!!!] Discover has my back. Jonathan told me to email the booking place and tell them I do not authorize the charge, he noted it on his end, and said to blitz them with emails that I am cancelling and have made Discover aware of this… so I did. He said it is not normal [so did Jennie, btw] to charge the fee this far in advance and legally they cannot ‘hold’ the charge in reserve for more than 10-days, so he said if they do not cancel I should use the ‘freeze account’ option through Discover and they will handle the problem on my behalf. See what I mean? Discover is totally awesome! Shame on you, Ramada Inn!

I am so outtie….

huh?

ME: What’re you doing here….

JOE: What do you mean?

ME: Uh, school…?

JOE: It’s Saturday.

ME: Wait, what?

JOE: For real, I’ll show you-picks up cellphone and points to date-see?

ME: What the hell happened to Friday?-Joe laughs-And why am I even up?

 

Seriously, what happened to Friday? I am so outtie….

Phantom vs Selena

So I like Selena Gomez’s singing, even use her Love You Like A Love Song as my alarm clock song. I usually wake up with a smile on my face, which leads to a pleasant day.

Gerard Butler is *sighs* a sexy beast, he’s Scottish – and that is my top fave accent; he played the Opera Ghost in The Phantom of the Opera (2004) and I adore his singing almost as much as I love his speaking voice. In fact, I play the DVD every night to fall asleep to. [Please note I am using extreme strength not to insert some *double sighs* here folks.]

Apparently this morning I was really getting into the Phantom’s music, cause when I eventually woke up, I discovered I had not only turned my alarm clock off but had also muted my phone! *laughs*

Silly me, I am so outtie….

TV tonight

Earlier this evening I was watching Criminal Minds (2005-ongoing, Jeff Davis – Creator), and for those that do not watch it, they tend to end every episode with a quote that kind of sums up the episode, from a famous person. The episode that is sticking with me – well, actually, the quote is, I can’t really remember the episode details already! *laughs* Any way, it was a Maya Angelou poem, Alone.

Lying, thinking
Last night
How to find my soul a home
Where water is not thirsty
And bread loaf is not stone
I came up with one thing
And I don’t believe I’m wrong
That nobody,
But nobody
Can make it out here alone.

Alone, all alone
Nobody, but nobody
Can make it out here alone.

There are some millionaires
With money they can’t use
Their wives run round like banshees
Their children sing the blues
They’ve got expensive doctors
To cure their hearts of stone.
But nobody
No, nobody
Can make it out here alone.

Alone, all alone
Nobody, but nobody
Can make it out here alone.

Now if you listen closely
I’ll tell you what I know
Storm clouds are gathering
The wind is gonna blow
The race of man is suffering
And I can hear the moan,
‘Cause nobody,
But nobody
Can make it out here alone.

Alone, all alone
Nobody, but nobody
Can make it out here alone.

Poem found on Poem Hunter site, originally submitted to site on January 23, 2012 and edited on March 29, 2014.
The character AJ, portrayed by Jennifer Jareau, said the last lines from the poem and it really stuck with me… Alone, all alone / Nobody, but nobody / Can make it out here alone. Wow. Potent lines. In full disclosure, I am not a poetry person, at all. But those lines really spoke to me. Powerful words from a powerful lady.
K, I’m so outtie….

the Saga Continues…

So, after fighting with Windows 10 over ownership of my purple laptop and the new Microsoft browser playing games with my school forum boards [where a large percentage of my grade comes from, mind you] I finally got ticked off and restored to Windows 7. I am not gonna do the upgrade on this desktop, either, after my personal experience with my school laptop! I may allow the new Dell to keep using Windows 10, since it is the only touchscreen enabled PC in the house and just might be able to take advantage of some of the new stuff… but this ownership crap is a huge issue to me. I bought every stinking one of the computer’s in this house with my own hard-earned cash and savings, and now Microsoft’s Windows 10 says I don’t have permission to do things because I don’t own it?!?

Issues are still coming up, too. When I finally decided to restore Windows 7, I figured I would do a total system restore to the day before the upgrade. I had specifically created a restore point, just in case, before I did the upgrade. Did I restore? No. Apparently Windows 10 deleted that restore point and the only one left on my purple laptop is two damn years old! It destroyed/deleted every single current to semi-current restore point my laptop had on it! Damn dirty, Microsoft, damn dirty…. And I am back to the ownership issues once again, with my Outlook mail not allowing me to get my domain’s email because I don’t have permission, I’m not the owner, of the Outlook pst data files where all accounts folders are stored. I’m about ready to uninstall Outlook and re-install it fresh, to hell with all those years of saved messages.

I see so many program shortcuts on my desktop with ‘locks’ on them now – I guess I no longer own all of these programs I have purchased over the years and use daily… you did this soooooo wrong, Microsoft! I am not a computer expert and have never claimed to be. However, I have been the Administrator over my own machines for six or more years. As the Administrator, it is up to me to give permissions to the various programs and how/if other users can access them and to what extent. But this Windows 10 upgrade changed all of that, taking away and limiting what I, as the Administrator, am allowed to do – ON MY OWN MACHINE!!!!!!! And then takes away my ability to restore to a point right before I did the upgrade. I am beyond pissed over this – this is messing with my schooling for crying out loud! If I were to use that old restore point from 2013, I would lose half of my BA classes stored on the machine and ALL of my MA classes – and I’m almost finished with my degree. That’s a lot of records, folks.

I suppose I can use my new Dell and move all essential Documents and installation files to it, for safe keeping, and then do the old restore… and take hours to do updates to bring Windows 7 back to where it should be. That is, if either machine allows me to do that, with these ownership issues! And if I can simply download and install the Windows 7 security packs without needing to upgrade to Windows 10 again. Christ, what a mess… *sighs* You did this so very wrong, Microsoft… this is hitting me harder than losing my old blog and my old graphics folder, cause losing those was on me, my stupidity. But what’s going on with my purple laptop – that’s on Microsoft and is so wrong.

Damn. I am so outtie….

Microsoft 10 free upgrade

K, so I signed up for the free upgrade on three of my four computers. Laptops were done, yesterday. I opted to upgrade my newest laptop first, the awesome Dell Inspiron with touchscreen capabilities, cause I figured it would really enhance it. I wasn’t disappointed! Upgrade was done without a hitch, took maybe 15-20 minutes total and I finished [pretty much] setting up that laptop for my use – although I do still have a few small things to adjust yet, but no biggie. Checked my desk top, but the upgrade notice for it still hadn’t come in. So I moved to my older laptop, affectionately called the purple laptop.

The purple laptop is my five year old Dell Inspiron, used exclusively for school. The newer Dell will be my dedicated writing laptop in the very near future, as I am setting it up slowly, working around my school schedule… it’s lighter than the purple laptop, so I can see myself packing it up and taking it with me, more than I do the purple one.

I had a ton [i.e. an excess of twenty-five] windows open on my purple laptop, the rewards of my research for my school paper. Having recently lost my old blog and a folder filled with graphics I created, I was very mindful of save, save, save before starting the upgrade. So I went through all window tabs and either bookmarked for later reading, or saved pages that were actually pdf’s, to my desktop. I saved the work I had already done on the paper due this Sunday, closed everything I wasn’t using and began the upgrade. Took slightly longer for the download than the new Dell, but no complaints because there was a lot of data streaming from the house at the time. Once the download was complete, I began the upgrade process. Again, it was smooth, Microsoft did a pretty good job on making the transition easy; timing of upgrade was slightly longer than the new Dell’s upgrade, but the app stuff was pretty much all new to the purple laptop, so again, no real complaints.

However, once finished with the upgrade, I logged in to do more work to my paper. Settings had changed, it was now a ‘read-only’ document. Huh. Okay, I know the button to click off to stop an item being read-only… it wasn’t clicked. Huh. So I decided to use the good old save as and create a clean copy to finish working on… kept getting a Microsoft error message that I wasn’t allowed to use this Word feature, that I needed to check with the computer’s Administrator. Uh, that’s me, guys! It asked if I wanted to do a plain old save to the file, in My Documents. I figure why not, I can finish my paper and then move the corrected document to the folder it should be in and overwrite the read-only copy. Same message, I’m not allowed to do this and must gain the computer Administrator’s permission. Uh, guys> That’s still me….

I had to go through many, many, many steps to tell my faithful purple laptop that yes, I am the Administrator and that I ‘own’ the folder and all subfolders and files associated with it. By the time I figured this out and actually did it, it was early morning. So I didn’t work on the paper – and also had noticed that all of the annotated bibliography stuff I had written [I really hate writing annotated bibliographies!] was never saved, even though my Word documents are all set up to do an auto-save every ten minutes.

Apparently Microsoft, in all of its wisdom, chose to rename how things are done and where items go, with the new OS. For security purposes, mainly. Kudos for that, I suppose. However, with the new OS, my purple laptop no longer had my original Administrator account, AdminST. That account was the one that dealt with all system ‘business’ and gave permissions to my slightly lesser account, Shari, which mainly used Word and occasionally Paint Shop Pro 7; AdminST oversaw all installations and stuff, determining where things should be installed and who all had access. Business stuff. Might seem redundant since Shari and AdminST are the same person, but it was my own security protocol in case I allowed anyone else use of the laptop. The new OS got rid of AdminST and made Shari the Administrator – but locked things down so Shari had to search and find out how and where to go to get access back over her own darn computer! Now, instead of ‘My Documents’ where all important stuff was moved to, you know, the stuff you wanted to be sure was protected in case of crashes or recoveries, now I have ‘File Explorer’ to look for items… I guess File Explorer basically covers the old My Documents and Programs and all that mundane stuff [read sarcasm there, folks!]

My purple laptop is not touchscreen enabled, so it will never use the ‘tablet’ style built into the new OS. [Although I confess I adore it in my new Dell.] The newer security features seem pretty good, but I dislike hiding areas I, as Administrator, would need to visit periodically – like ‘My Computer’ among others. Hey Microsoft, why not build a style that resembles our original computer so that those PC’s that are not touchscreen enabled and likely never going to use the newer tablet style, can use – but with all of your new security built in? Wouldn’t that make more sense? I mean, I’m all for progress, but some of us simply cannot afford to purchase brand new computers every time you choose to upgrade, or once a year – whichever comes first. And I’m certainly not going to throw away/dispose of/trade-in my faithful purple laptop because it doesn’t have the capabilities to utilize the apps/touchscreen stuff, either. So how about some kind of happy middle ground for these older, still definitely usable, PC’s?

So now I’m really worried about my desktop. I use this for lots of things – creating graphics, web page design, some writing and blogging, playing games, relaxing on the web, email… and it’s at least four years older than my purple laptop. Still fast enough and according to Microsoft’s check, can handle the upgrade to the new OS. It also have several user profiles on it… my own Admin account and an Admin account for S, since he use to do the majority of repairs and stuff for my PC’s. His account had VPN access to my other PC’s for maintenance/repair purposes. I also have a user account for Joe, and one for Guests. But from what I saw on my purple laptop, all of those will go away. Now, don’t get me wrong, Microsoft does allow you to create new user profiles in the new OS. But, they must be associated with a Microsoft [Hotmail] email address in order to create them. I don’t want more Hotmail addresses, I have several domains I own and prefer to use them for any email address I might need. Plus the need to go through this PC and reclaim ownership of everything I already own. [Sorry, but that’s just plain stupid to me!]

So, the upgrade on a fairly clean, new laptop – awesome! Upgrade on a slightly older, well used purple laptop – pain in the ass. Upgrade on a much older, also not touchscreen enabled, desktop with loads of life and use left in it? Fear inspiring….

Oh, and by the way, I finished the required annotated bibliographies [*sighs* I so hate annotated bibliographies!] and wrote about half of my paper today. Like I said, it isn’t due until Sunday, so I’m back on schedule.

I am so outtie….

of a sort

Finished all required homework readings, very interesting articles and information on plagiarism, I might add. Completed my discussion post a day early [yay, me!] and got my required replies done, although I am sure I’ll reply more as I read my peers posts. Started doing research for first report/paper due this coming Sunday and have been busy reading through them, determining which I might use as a source. I’ve started formulating this report in my mind, but haven’t written anything down, per se. Then started to get a headache – some of these articles are locked and preset on sizes, and I’m finding the print a tad hard for these old eyes to read! *laughs* So closed my laptop for a quick break and checked email, now posting… will probably go grab snail-mail before I return to my research readings. I plan to start working on the writing portion, this evening. Only 500-1000 words required, but also must include 2-3 annotated sources, with annotation being at least 250 words. *sighs* I hate annotated bibliographies.

Okay, even took a quickie fifteen minute break from this post to rest my eyes; eyes feel a bit better, so I’m heading out to check snail-mail and then back to reading the research documents. *sighs* I am soooo ready to be done with school for a bit, only two more classes after the current one! I plan on taking a break from all schooling once I graduate, assess my needs/wants/desires, then will determine if I’m going to work on an English doctorate, or go for a BA in psych [which, honestly, I’m favoring currently… I think it would add a lot to my fiction, especially in character creation.] And while on said school break, I will be writing up a storm! Continuing work on the two started novels, have another idea beginning to come to fruition, and of course, the promised website renovation.

Okay then, so I am so outtie….

Invention…

So the next paper I have to do concerns ‘invention and research.’ Kind of broad words there, but the paper has to do with teaching others – recall, my class this term is teaching me how to teach others. I have all sorts of ideas as to the ‘research’ portion, but was feeling fairly clueless concerning the ‘invention’ part. Until I read this, “Some composition faculty use formal methods derived from logic or problem solving (sometimes called heuristics); other teachers use various forms of brainstorming, cognitive mapping, or clustering of ideas. Still others ask students to do unstructured five-minute writes, freewriting, or aptly named discovery drafts as ways to uncover or develop ideas. These are all forms of what classical rhetoric called invention: the finding of topics for development” (White, p 9). Huh. That clicked. I mean, it really helped me get an idea of what this paper should be about. It also got me thinking about my final paper – not due for 6-7 weeks yet, but still… we’re supposed to decide what age group we wish to teach. Our final paper consists of creating a syllabus, four lesson plans, a grading rubric, and our teaching philosophy that explains several other details. Any-hoo, while I’m not really entertaining the idea of education as a career, I did think about targeting high school age on up, creative writing. Of course, I may change my mind over the next few weeks, but that’s what I have thus far!

I haven’t gotten much of my required reading done; a neighbor has been blasting the most annoying music for the last six hours! The steady thump of bass and squeal of trumpets has made it impossible to concentrate and retain anything read, along with giving me a headache. *sighs* Today was designated a reading day, and tomorrow to be a writing day… now my schedule is off. Although it does sound like the music is finally stopping (yay!) so I just might be able to get some reading done – I can push through the headache, and salvage some of the stuff I wanted to get done today. *fingers crossed*

I am anxious to get back to my writing, too. The story I was working on during my last term… oh yeah, forgot, old blog describing it was deleted. *sighs* Okay, breathe, Shari…. So, this story is one that had been poking around in my brain awhile ago, but put on the back burner due to school requirements. I pulled it out for the class because I had a wee bit of blockage going on – I’ll discuss it later, I am so not up to the additional headache tonight, thankyouverymuch! But it’s family related – and grabbed all of my old notes to do a required assignment. Well, it blossomed. Turns out it’s a paranormal romance with a bit of action and intrigue going on, and it’s shaping up to be part of a series. Some family issues popped up [surprise, surprise, she said sarcastically] as class ended, taking up most of my week in-between that term and this term, so I didn’t get any writing done on the story. Although I did manage to edit a tiny bit. Then, this term started and I tossed myself in full blast, reading and making sure assignments are completed on time. Whew!

This class still does confuse me quite a bit, yet at the same time I feel like I will get a handle on it and, as always, will do my best. So I’m hopeful I’ll be able to carve out some time for creative writing – hence the aforementioned reading/writing schedule.

M’kay, music has definitely stopped so I’m going to get back to reading. So, I am so outtie….

White, Edward M. Assigning, Responding, Evaluating: A Writing Teacher’s Guide, 4th edition. Boston/New York: Bedford/St. Martin’s. 2007. Print.

Fresh as a daisy

Yep, I’m starting over. Not by choice, mind you, but due to some stupidity on my part I lost all of my previous postings [12 years worth!! *sighs*] so here I go again, as Dolly Parton would say. As this will be published to the Writing category, best I keep it to writing related stuff, eh?

I have posted a few links under ‘Favorite’s’ on the left, and will add more as I come across them. These will all be writing related, should I happen to stumble across an awesome non-writing blog, well, I’ll simply add a new category!

School is going well enough; the blasé comment is because I am still fairly confused by the class and what is expected of me. And this is the class that is teaching me how to be a teacher, mind you. Argh. Many of my peers are already, or desire to be, teachers. I had never entertained the idea, personally, although my Mom had hoped I would become an educator. I just want to write. Period.

Speaking of school, think I better hop over to my laptop and log into class. See if anything new has been posted in this weeks discussion forum. Hey, only two more classes to go after this one, and I’ll have my MA! Yay!

K, I am so outtie….

teacher talk!

Once upon a time… I knew where I was going, knew what I wanted – and – needed to do. But somehow… somewhere… I lost my way… lost myself? and now I’m uncertain. Uncertain? Age old questions that only some seem lucky enough to know the answers to… why am I here? What is my urpose in life? Will my presence make any difference – in the greater scheme of things – at all?

At one time, I thought my purpose was to write, to share parts of me via my written word… born in fiction, speaking tidbits of life’s travails, spirituality peeking through… *chuckles* hell, once upon a time, my Mom wanted me to be a doctor… then a school teacher… *grins* neither of which, is who I am!

A part of me reached out, via the web, by way of my web pages and fiction I placed there… I adopted all sorts of cute little graphics and wrote stories for and about them… *smiles* I had a fairly large following of young guests, following those story lines. They followed me here, to my own domain… then I began to get involved in various groups and organizations. When I felt “me” slipping away – I began quitting those groups, one by one.

I continued to educate myself, try to better myself… began to release my creativity via the graphics I began to create. And now? I feel stifled somehow… I rarely sit here long enough to make a graphic. And write? *sighs* I don’t think I really know how to, anymore… I feel lost, and don’t know where or how to find myself, anymore….