Long time no blog, my bad. Still smoking – dammit. Roughly between a half and three quarters a pack a day. I still want to quit; you smokers out there know how hard it is. The bout of flu, remnants of Covid-19 or whatever, have made it hard to vape. Vaping sends me into a spiral of coughing while a cigarette doesn’t. I would prefer to vape over having a cigarette, however. Going without the damn nicotine gives me the shakes, raises my level of rage – which is not a pretty sight, believe me – and heightens. my overall sensitivity – not in a good way.
I’m knitting and crocheting, which is enjoyable and lowers my stress. A cigarette lowers my stress in the moment, although sometimes it takes two cigarettes. While allowing myself to work on one of the sweaters I’m making, does the same – I have one sweater I’m crocheting and one I’m knitting. However, interruptions can piss me off, annoy me. Some interruptions cannot be avoided, some can. I try not to smoke while knitting/crocheting, although I did allow myself to hit my vape in the past.
It may not sound like it to you non-smokers out there, but I am trying. I do want to quit smoking. Breaking a thirty plus year addiction is extremely difficult. K, I am so outtie….