Author: AdminST

Along somewhat similar vein… S also thinks Win98 is getting ready to blow, on my puter… he’s trying to figure out where he can back everything up – I have the largest hard drive in the house, and have it almost used up, to boot.

S went to an online site and took some sample questions for the GED – passed with no problem, and he was tired and not thinking straight, when he did so… so he felt more reassured about passing the test. Besides, he figures if Luke can pass it, he can with no problems!

Haven’t heard from Springy in about a week… that concerns me. I read about a job in the paper that I’m sure I’m qualified for, but unsure I could physically handle… thinking about applying, but am scared too… that would be giving up PERS – scary thought, especially when it’s the only set money coming in right now… (HA! Set or stable, what a joke – I STILL haven’t gotten my October check!)

I can’t keep up with S. He was on my puter all day, said he’s been sending resumes out – plus chatting with his friends. Mentioned to Sonja_Bleu what’s been happening… god I love her! She’s sending the money so S can take his GED, only asks that he FIND A JOB for payment! LoL He said he’s trying, irregardless of her sending the money… my point is, although he’s still upset about not being hired anywhere – it’s been a full month now, since he was fired – he’s not despondant like he was yesterday, or quite as depressed. It’s obvious he’s still upset – but his spirit seems higher today…

Goddess help me, I don’t know what to do.

S just told me he said “good-bye” to two of his chat friends, tonight, and will be saying good-bye to the rest, tomorrow… when I asked him why, he said — I don’t have a computer anymore, and in about a month, I’ll be homeless… so I figured now is the time to say good-bye.

I really don’t understand this. He is so intelligent, so knowledgable in computers. True, he doesn’t have a “formal” education in the field – when he took college classes, he ended up teaching  his  teachers… we are living in a very technological area, where jobs actually are plenty… he takes each technical test given to him, and truly impresses those who gave it to him… the only “flaw” they hold against him – not the lack of formal education, in all honesty – but his credit report. I might be able to understand that thinking, if he was applying for positions involving money or a corporate credit card, but he’s not. He’s applying for what he knows and does best – network admin and service help desk. Why can’t these various potential employers see the catch 22 here? Credit will go down, when one doesn’t have a means (job) to pay their bills, yet they seem to think one cannot perform a job, without good credit…

Things have looked bleak before, and we’ve always managed to survive somehow… this time, I don’t know… I’m scared.

Just a quickie note – still haven’t heard from any of those jobs S applied for, and we’re sharing my puter… actually, he’s on it more then me, right now. But that’s okay – we’re playing around with starting up a web design business, and he’s working on some graphics and pages… I was so pleasantly surprised to see the name he finally settled on (we’d been brainstorming for a few hours for a company name)  Scribes Canvas. Not only does it suit what we have in mind – but it honors my domain, as well… Decker is still a bit ill, but both girls are doing fine… haven’t heard from Sonja_Bleu in ages, at least 3 days now… as to Tony *sighs* it’s been, what… a month? I think? I still feel all in turmoil, inside, but nothing I can really say – yeah, it’s cause this or because of that – on…

What next? About an hour ago, S’s laptop totally fried. He has no way to replace it, nor can he repair it – the motherboard fried. He needs his laptop to job hunt, not to mention, as neither of us has any damn money, surfing/chatting is our only form of entertainment…

Haven’t heard from Mom, about how Don is doing… phoned Rick to let him know – he said they finally sold their house – at a HUGE financial loss for them. But he’s happy enough, it means they can move back to Toledo now.

Oh yeah, update on dogs… pulled them off their dry Pedigree – fairly certain it’s gone bad. Wrote an email to Waltham foods, about it – haven’t heard anything. I pulled everyone off their food and gave them 24 hours rest (but allowed water to drink, since Remi only vomited once) Tuesday, gave them rice & hamburger – stools heading towards normal today, so gave them rice-burger to eat, again. Not sure if I’ll out and out stop using Pedigree – it was probably an old bag or something. I just won’t buy at Cub’s any more, pet store only, from now on.

Well, Compaq didn’t call S. He’s been steadily applying all over the place… frankly, I’m getting scared. Add to this stress – last night, I got an email from Mom. She just got home from the hospital  (this was around 11pm or midnight)  after having Don admitted. He apparently had passed out that morning – unknown cause. He was reading the paper, having his morning cup of coffee, when he said he felt nauseous then dizzy… and the next thing he knew, Mom was leaning over him. They’re guessing he was out for about 5 minutes. The MD there is “guessing” he had a reaction to the caffeine… uh, doc? He has a cup of coffee every morning, and has for about the last 40 years! Although I had a weird “feeling” that he should be checked for bug bites – chances are, it was his heart. Last I heard, all tests came back negative…

I still haven’t gotten my October check… S used his truck payment money, to pay the phone bill and buy some groceries for us… dammit, I don’t know what to do. I’m scared.

Wanna know how I spent the majority of my weekend? Cleaning up dog vomit and diahrrea… sounds yummy, no? Have no clue what’s going on here… Fri(the 13th-first bad one I’ve  ever  had) Decker woke me up by vomiting – loudly. I discovered piss and diahrrea spots all over my bedroom… thinking back, it was probably Sat, not Fri, this happened on… later in the day, Remi began barfing – about 5 minutes after being fed. Diahrrea started for her, about 20 minutes later.

Musta been Fri – cause all food and water was removed for all day Sat. I always remover food and water, to give their tummies a chance to rest, after gastro upsets. Sunday, they were given a small drink around noon – handled that no prob, so gave them another drink about a half hour later. Again, no prob, so allowed the water dish to remain accessible for the rest of the day, about an hour later. Interesting note here – Heather did NOT get sick. All 3 are on same food, go potty same area of the back yard, etc. Figured it was the chicken stock from the Cornish game hens that did it – it “did” smell bad, the day Remi got sick.

So, Sunday, on to next phase. Didn’t have any rice for a bland diet, so gave all 3 dogs some pasta – nothing added other then an extremely watered down gravy, for flavoring. Everyone handled that, no prob. Have to be off on my timing here, in writing this – cause last night I fed them regular dog food, since they had handled the pasta diet with no problems for almost a full 24 hours. Any-hoo… the dog food had spaghetti sauce as the gravy (almost pure hamburg, little tomato sauce, lots’a mushrooms) woke up from Decker’s diahrrea again…. Remi began vomiting and diahrrea about 4-5 hours later… back to cleaning up like crazy, still not seeing any signs of illness in Heather… everyone is up to date on shots… damn I want a cigarette

Hmm, 11 days since I last posted… was it deliberate? Possibly… so, first… check came from Mom – she made it out to my married name, which I haven’t used in over 4 years… she’s also one who is very big on lecturing me, not to talk or think about my ex, as that’ll give him power, a connection to me… I keep him out of my thoughts, for the most part – unless  something or someone  tosses some kind of reminder at me — meaning, Mom has brought him up in at least every other phone conversation, and now email, too! Honestly, I resent the reminders, having him “tossed” in my face like this, and I abhorr how she is using him as a reference point…

PERS – assholes, MAILED my damn check to Connecticut, of all places! Why? Because they’re fucking morons, is why! Now, I have to have a formal stop payment placed on the check, and fill out a form “requesting” a new check be issued… all this shit arrived in Fri & Sat’s mail – now I need to fill it out and fax it to them, as well as snail-mail it back. One wee little issue (do they think  I’m  the stupid one here?!?) is #4 on this form, states “I will be responsible for the amount, and reimburse PERS for said amount, if the original warrant is either cashed, or never found.” I have NO clue where they mailed my check, in CT, or WHY they did so — and they expect ME to pay them back, for their own fuck-up? Yeah, right…. I’ll pen in, before it’s notarized – I will be responsible for said amount and warrant, ONLY if cashed by myself or on my behalf, per my request. That “should” cover me, if anyone stole the check and attempts to cash it… but I am NOT being responsible for PERS screw up. Period.

Xerox – doubt S got that job, waiting to hear from Compaq – they said they’d let him know Tues or Wed of this week. So wait and see – although he felt real good about the interview…